hope

Yet This I Call to Mind

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There is a moment in Lamentations 3 that I think I’ve read past too quickly.

Before the familiar words about God’s mercies being new every morning, there is this:

“Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope.”

I keep coming back to the word call.

Because it sounds intentional.

The writer doesn’t say hope suddenly found him.

He says he called something to mind.

And if you read what comes before it, that matters.

He’s hurting.

He’s remembering everything that has gone wrong.

His soul is downcast.

Nothing about his circumstances appears to change before the next sentence.

And yet…

“This I call to mind.”

He remembers who God is.

His love.

His compassion.

His faithfulness.

And then hope enters the story.

I think I’ve spent a lot of my life assuming hope is something I’m supposed to feel.

But maybe sometimes hope is something I have to remember.

Not because the pain isn’t real.

Not because remembering God’s faithfulness suddenly fixes what’s hurting.

But because pain has a way of narrowing our vision.

It can make this moment feel like the whole story.

Maybe that’s why remembering matters so much.

Sometimes we have to deliberately bring back into view what suffering has pushed to the edges.

The prayers God has already answered.

The places He has already carried us.

The mercy that met us yesterday.

The faithfulness that existed long before whatever we’re facing today.

And maybe that’s what I love most about Lamentations 3.

Hope doesn’t require the writer to pretend.

He can acknowledge the grief…

and still remember God.

Maybe faith looks like that sometimes.

Not forcing ourselves to feel hopeful.

Just choosing, once again, to call His faithfulness to mind.

And letting hope meet us there.

“Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope.”

— Lamentations 3:21 (NIV)

Evidence in the Waiting

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I think I’ve spent a lot of time looking for evidence of God’s faithfulness in endings.

The answered prayer.

The open door.

The moment everything finally makes sense.

The part of the story where I can look back and say,

There. That’s what God was doing.

But what about before that?

What about the middle?

What about when the prayer is still a prayer?

When the door hasn’t opened.

When the answer hasn’t come.

When you’re still waiting.

I’ve started wondering if maybe I’ve been looking for the wrong kind of evidence.

Because even in the waiting, there is evidence.

The strength that showed up when mine ran out.

The peace I couldn’t explain.

The person who called at exactly the right time.

The provision that wasn’t enough for the entire journey, but was enough for today.

The courage to take one more step without knowing where the next one would lead.

Maybe I’ve been treating those things like small mercies along the way to the answer.

But what if they are the answer, too?

Not the answer to when.

Or why.

Or how this ends.

But the answer to something perhaps even more important:

Are You still here?

Yes.

There is evidence everywhere.

Not always evidence of where God is taking me.

But evidence that He hasn’t left me while I get there.

Maybe that’s what waiting has been teaching me.

I don’t have to reach the other side before I can testify to God’s faithfulness.

I can find evidence of it here.

Right in the middle.

While I’m still waiting.

“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”

— Lamentations 3:22–23 (NIV)

The Weight of Living

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I don’t think we talk enough about the weight of living.

Not because something terrible has happened.

Sometimes it has.

But sometimes…

it’s simply the weight of being human.

The weight of making decisions.

Loving people.

Showing up when you’d rather stay home.

Paying bills.

Raising children.

Caring for aging parents.

Answering difficult emails.

Wondering about the future.

Praying prayers that haven’t been answered yet.

None of those things feel overwhelming on their own.

But together…

they can become surprisingly heavy.

I think we often feel guilty for admitting that.

After all, we’re blessed.

There are people carrying much heavier burdens.

So we tell ourselves we shouldn’t feel tired.

We shouldn’t feel weary.

We shouldn’t feel the weight.

But Jesus never said,

“Come to me, all you who have experienced catastrophic loss.”

He said,

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

He didn’t qualify the burden.

He simply acknowledged it.

Maybe because He understood something we often forget.

Living carries weight.

Not every burden is dramatic.

Some are quiet.

The mental list you carry before your feet ever hit the floor in the morning.

The conversation you’ve been rehearsing in your mind.

The uncertainty you keep trying to solve.

The person you’re praying for.

The responsibility no one else sees.

It’s possible to love your life…

and still feel the weight of living it.

I wonder if we’ve mistaken weariness for weakness.

Maybe they’re not the same thing.

Maybe feeling the weight doesn’t mean we’re failing.

Maybe it simply means we’re carrying things that matter.

Even good things have weight.

Love has weight.

Responsibility has weight.

Hope has weight.

And while those things are beautiful…

they were never meant to be carried alone.

That’s why I love Jesus’ invitation.

He doesn’t shame the weary.

He welcomes them.

He doesn’t ask us to become stronger before coming to Him.

He simply says,

“Come.”

I’ve been learning that peace isn’t found in pretending life isn’t heavy.

Peace is found in knowing I don’t have to carry the weight by myself.

Maybe that’s what Jesus meant all along.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

— Matthew 11:28 (NIV)

The Prayer I Keep Coming Back To

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Some prayers are long.

Some are carefully thought out.

Some are whispered through tears.

And some become so familiar that they begin to feel like home.

I’ve noticed that difficult seasons have a way of simplifying my prayers.

When life feels uncertain…

when I’m carrying more than I know what to do with…

when grief and hope somehow occupy the same space in my heart…

I don’t usually have eloquent words.

I have one prayer.

Not because it’s magical.

Not because repeating it changes my circumstances.

But because it reminds me of what I so easily forget.

It reminds me that grief and hope don’t have to compete with each other.

For a long time, I thought healing meant grieving less.

Now I wonder if healing isn’t grieving less… but learning to grieve without letting grief become the loudest voice in the room.

I’ve learned that it’s possible to miss what was…

while still believing God for what could be.

It’s possible to mourn what has been lost…

without losing sight of what God is still creating.

It’s possible to carry sadness in one hand…

and hope in the other.

Maybe that’s what faith looks like.

Not pretending everything is okay.

Not rushing past heartbreak.

Not forcing gratitude before we’re ready.

But trusting that God is still building something beautiful while we’re standing in the middle of what feels broken.

That’s why I keep coming back to this prayer.

Not because I’ve mastered it.

Because I still need it.

Almost every day.

Lord, help me grieve what I’ve lost without losing sight of what You’re still building.

Give me peace for today and hope for tomorrow.

Amen.

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?”

Isaiah 43:18–19 (NIV)

We Were Never Meant to Stay Here Forever

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Lately, I’ve found myself thinking more about heaven.

Strangely enough, it’s made me think differently about death.

We spend much of our lives trying to preserve the life we’ve been given.

We exercise.

We take our medicine.

We buckle our seatbelts.

We eat a little healthier.

We do everything we can to care for these fragile bodies God has entrusted to us.

And rightly so.

Life is a gift.

But the older I get, the more heaven feels less like an idea… and more like a promise.

There comes a point when you begin to realize that every goodbye carries a different kind of weight.

You understand why people cry.

Why they linger.

Why they hold hands a little longer.

Because love has a way of making us wish time would slow down.

And yet, as followers of Christ, we grieve differently.

Not because death doesn’t hurt.

It does.

Not because we’ll stop missing the people we love.

We won’t.

But because death was never meant to have the final word.

Sometimes I wonder if we’ve become so attached to this world that we forget it was never meant to be our forever home.

Scripture describes a place where sorrow ends.

Where tears are wiped away.

Where pain no longer has a home.

Where everything broken is finally made whole.

That’s not wishful thinking.

That’s hope.

The kind of hope that allows us to grieve deeply… and still look forward with expectation.

So while my heart still aches at the thought of saying goodbye…

another part of me quietly rejoices.

Because for those who belong to Christ,

death is not the end of the story.

It’s the moment faith becomes sight.

Maybe that’s why heaven has always been called our true home.

Not because this life isn’t beautiful.

It is.

It holds sunsets and laughter.

Children’s voices.

The people we love.

The ordinary moments we’ll one day realize were extraordinary.

Perhaps those moments were never meant to satisfy us completely.

Perhaps they were always meant to awaken a longing for something even greater.

Because even at its very best…

we’re just passing through.

“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ.”

Philippians 3:20 (NIV)

If It Isn’t Good, Then It Isn’t Over

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I’ll never forget a conversation I had with a family member at the beginning of one of the darkest seasons of my life.

She looked at me and said,

“One thing that has always helped me is remembering this: if it isn’t good, then it isn’t over.”

Those weren’t the exact words of Scripture.

But they pointed me back to the God of Scripture.

And they’ve stayed with me ever since.

At first, I held onto those words because I desperately wanted my circumstances to change.

I needed to believe that pain wasn’t the final chapter.

But over the years, they’ve come to mean something even deeper.

Sometimes life is wonderfully good.

So good that we silently wish it could stay exactly as it is.

A table full of people you love.

A child wrapped around your neck.

A sunset that makes you stop walking.

A day you wish you could live twice.

And yet, even those moments aren’t the end of the story.

Because as beautiful as this life can be…

it’s only a glimpse.

Scripture doesn’t promise us a perfect life here.

It promises something even greater.

A day when everything broken will finally be made whole.

A day when sorrow will have no place.

A day when death itself will be swallowed up forever.

So whether today feels heavy or beautiful, I find comfort in the same truth.

God isn’t finished.

And the best chapter has always been the one still to come.

“He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain…”
— Revelation 21:4 (NIV)

Something Is Alive

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It’s been a year since I started writing here.

At the time, I wasn’t writing from clarity.
I wasn’t writing from the other side of anything.

I was writing from the middle.

And if I’m honest,
I still am.

I used to think Easter would feel like resolution.

Like the kind of moment
where everything makes sense
and everything is made right.

But I don’t think that’s what it is.

Because if I’m honest,
there are still things in my life that don’t feel resolved.

Things that didn’t turn out the way I thought they would.
Things that haven’t been restored.
Things I still don’t fully understand.

And yet…

something has changed.

Not everything.

But something.

There are parts of me that are still healing.
Still learning.
Still walking through things I never expected to carry.

But there are also parts of me
that are no longer where they used to be.

Quieter.
Stronger.
More grounded than I was before.

Not because everything got easier.

But because something in me
didn’t stay where it was.

And I think that’s what Easter is.

Not the erasing of what happened.
Not a return to what was.

But life
where there wasn’t life before.

Not loud.
Not immediate.

But real.

And maybe that’s what I’m holding onto today.

Not that everything is finished.

But that something is alive in me
that wasn’t before.

And maybe that’s what this past year has been teaching me.

Not that everything changes overnight —
but that life can begin again,
even in the middle of it.

“Just as Christ was raised from the dead… we too may live a new life.”
— Romans 6:4 (NIV)

Before Sunday Comes

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There’s a part of the story we don’t rush through.

The part where everything looks like it’s over.

Where what was hoped for
what was prayed for
what was believed in

is now… gone.

Good Friday isn’t a hopeful day.

It’s not a day of answers.
It’s not a day where things make sense.

It’s the day everything falls quiet
after the worst has already happened.

And if I’m honest,
I think that’s the part I recognize the most.

Not the resurrection.
Not yet.

This part.

The part where you’re left standing
in the reality of what is
with no clear picture of what comes next.

Where faith doesn’t feel strong
it just feels… present.

Still there.
But quieter.

Not fixing anything.
Not explaining anything.

Just staying.

Good Friday doesn’t rush to meaning.

It doesn’t try to redeem anything yet.

It simply holds the weight of what has happened.

And maybe there are moments in life
that look more like this day than we want them to.

Moments where nothing feels good
and nothing feels resolved
and nothing is being put back together yet.

But the story doesn’t end here.

Even if it feels like it does.

“Father, into your hands I commit my spirit.”
— Luke 23:46 (NIV)

Holding On by a Thread

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I read something today that caught me off guard.

“I might be hanging on by a thread,
but it’s the thread of His garment.”

I don’t think I’ve ever thought about faith like that before.

We talk about strong faith.
Confident faith.
Faith that doesn’t waver.

But that’s not always what it looks like in real life.

Sometimes it looks thin.

Like you’re not holding everything together —
you’re just holding on.

And not even tightly.

Just enough to stay connected.

That’s what stood out to me.

Not the strength of it.
The smallness of it.

Because the woman who reached for Jesus’ garment
wasn’t making a statement.

She wasn’t trying to prove anything.

She was just trying to reach Him
in the only way she could.

And somehow, that was enough.

Not because her faith was impressive.
But because it was directed at the right place.

I think that’s what I forget.

That it doesn’t have to feel big.
Or strong.
Or even steady.

Sometimes it just has to be there.

A thread.

Not holding everything together —
just holding on to Him.

“If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.”
— Mark 5:28 (NIV)

What Cannot Be Crushed

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“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed… struck down, but not destroyed.”

I’ve read those words before and heard resilience.

Lately, I hear something else.

I hear preservation.

Paul doesn’t deny the pressing.
He doesn’t pretend the blows don’t land.
He simply draws a line between what touches the outside
and what reaches the inside.

Hard pressed — but not crushed.
Struck down — but not destroyed.

There is something in the believer that cannot be flattened.

Not because we are strong enough.
But because Christ in us is.

Life can press.
People can misunderstand.
Plans can shift.
Expectations can collapse.

But the Spirit of God within you?
Untouched.

That’s the miracle.

The world can affect your circumstances.
It cannot dismantle your identity.

It can exhaust your body.
It cannot erase your belonging.

It can knock you down.
It cannot take what God has planted.

Maybe that’s what this verse is really about —
not grit.
Not toughness.
Not proving how much you can endure.

But the quiet truth that there is something eternal in you.
Something anchored.
Something held.

You may feel pressed.
But what matters most in you
is not crushable.

“Christ in you, the hope of glory.”
— Colossians 1:27 (NIV)