There are moments when my heart doesn’t know how to choose just one feeling.
Gratitude and grief.
Peace and resistance.
Trust and ache.
They show up together, uninvited, and sit side by side.
I’ve learned that faith doesn’t always resolve the tension.
Sometimes it simply gives you permission to hold it.
To admit that something can be right and hard.
That obedience doesn’t always feel peaceful.
That surrender can still hurt.
I think we’re often tempted to rush ourselves out of conflicted spaces —
to label one feeling as faithful and the other as wrong.
But Scripture is full of people who loved God deeply
and still wrestled with what obedience cost them.
So maybe this isn’t confusion.
Maybe it’s complexity.
Maybe it’s the holy work of learning how to trust God
while your heart is still catching up.
Tonight, I’m not asking for clarity.
I’m asking for steadiness.
The kind that holds both truths at once.
The kind that doesn’t force resolution too quickly.
The kind that believes God is near —
even when the feelings don’t agree.
“Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.”
— Psalm 62:8 (NIV)
Where I Found My Voice 
My heart aches as you wrestle with this huge obstacle! Your little soul has already struggled with far more than most of us much older have…as a result though your faith has also surmounted what I would have believed was possible for one still so young and fragile. God will use this to keep your heart soft but your resolve strong. He will not allow you to be defeated. Your goal is His desire too and only He knows how to attain it. God bless and keep you both! Our love and prayers will never fail you either.
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My heart aches as you wrestle with this huge obstacle! Your little soul has already struggled with far more than most of us much older have…as a result though your faith has also surmounted what I would have believed was possible for one still so young and fragile. God will use this to keep your heart soft but your resolve strong. He will not allow you to be defeated. Your goal is His desire too and only He knows how to attain it. God bless and keep you both! Our love and prayers will never fail you either.
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