I read something today about Job.
That God didn’t give him his old life back —
He gave him a new one.
That some pain isn’t explained,
it’s redeemed.
And I’ve been sitting with that.
Because if I’m honest,
I think part of me still expects life to circle back.
To return what was lost.
To restore things the way they were.
To make it all make sense in a way I recognize.
But that’s not always how it works.
Sometimes what’s gone
doesn’t come back the same way.
Sometimes there isn’t a clear explanation.
No moment where everything is tied together neatly.
And that’s the part that’s hard to sit with.
Because redemption doesn’t always look like replacement.
It doesn’t always feel like more.
It doesn’t always come in a way you can immediately recognize as good.
Sometimes it’s quieter than that.
Sometimes it looks like continuing.
Like rebuilding without having all the pieces.
Like learning to hold both what was
and what is now
at the same time.
I don’t know that I fully understand redemption yet.
But I’m starting to see
that it isn’t always about getting something back.
Sometimes it’s about becoming someone
who can keep moving forward
even without it.
“I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten…”
— Joel 2:25 (NIV)
I greatly look forward to the nights your blog posts land! There are soo many pearls of wisdom to be gleaned from them…even at my age…don’t know when I’ve read a more powerful yet simple explanation of some of the important aspects of redemption…and as always, there is the perfect scripture to tie it up! The redemption you describe here may be full of awakening and content but it’s also filled with hope of a future, though not cut from the same cloth you had the original pattern for, I believe through the often difficult experiences you have grown from you will enter the new future a more seasoned woman whose not only filled with the natural charm you were blessed with but holding a cup full of grace for others now who will be blessed with their own hope as they learn your story. That’s one more reason to find thankfulness in the midst of the journey. Love you two dearly!! G
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