Do you ever feel guilty for being tired?
Not just tired from doing too much.
But tired from doing something
you’ve wanted to do for a long time.
Something that matters.
Something you don’t even get to do every day.
And somehow, that makes the tiredness feel heavier.
Because it doesn’t feel like something
you’re allowed to be worn down by.
It feels like something you should just be grateful for.
And I am.
I am grateful.
But I’m also tired.
And I’m starting to realize
those two things can exist at the same time.
That being thankful
doesn’t cancel out being human.
That doing something meaningful
doesn’t mean it won’t still take something out of you.
And maybe the guilt
comes from thinking it’s supposed to feel easier than it does.
But maybe it’s not.
Maybe it’s just something I’m learning how to hold.
Gratitude
and exhaustion
at the same time.
“Let us not become weary in doing good…”
— Galatians 6:9 (NIV)
Where I Found My Voice 
I understand the worn out feeling of keeping going on a very reduced amount of rest for yourself while patiently guiding the most energetic human ever to occupy the planet known as a “terrible two” Exhaustion hardly describes the bone tired ever vigilant weariness you are experiencing while loving this little one more than anyone in the whole world! Give yourself some grace, cut some corners that will not be jeopardized by the trimming and rest every chance you get even if something you thought you wanted to accomplish slides by with nary an attempt…who will know anyway if it’s not a matter of righteousness. He’s still going to love his mama unconditionally and so will HE! HE will be with you every step of the way! That’s all that matters! Because to HIM both of you matter! You are two precious children of HIS! Love and prayers…especially for a little rest for the weary! See yall soon! GG
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